I miss my grandparents so much at Christmas.
I grew up with a big extended family, we were this family that spent every Sunday together eating Sunday dinner at the dining room table at my grandparents home.
My grandparents had this house that looked like it was out of Better Homes and Gardens, with a indoor swimming pool, and I loved being there.
My Grandma lived for Christmas, she loved it...and it is shocking why, because her mother was killed a few days before Christmas, when she was only 12 years old, her mom was going across the street to get some water, and her dress got caught on the back of a car, that had slowed down , so they could say hi to the driver, and she got caught and pulled under the car....so my Grandma lost her mom at Xmas, she never ever let that stop us from being happy at that time of year. She would get nervous and didn't want people travelling around the 18th, which was the day my great grandma died.
But....I loved Christmas as a kid, because of my family. Now...all my grandparents have died, my Aunt died of a brain aneurysm when she was in her mid 50's, and my Dad died of brain cancer a few years ago, and my life is so different now.
But, my mom now lives with me, and I have a son, and I don't have the huge extended family that I had, and loved so much, but you gotta move on. I have created a new family out of my friends, and I love them so much.
You get 1 life, and you can't go back...so you make every moment count, the best way you can, because everything is what you make it to be.
If people make you miserable, then don't go around those people, find friends that are positive and upbeat and aren't going to drag you down.
It is very hard, and I feel bad for anybody who is alone around the holidays.
I always invite people to our home, because I never want anyone to be sitting by themselves on a holiday. That is why suicide is such a common thing around the holidays.
For me personally holidays have given me so much happiness, that's why I look forward to them so much....I can't imagine not celebrating them, but I do know that holidays are not everybody's favorite time of year, and that makes me sad for those people.
There is alot of stress around the holidays, and people forget what it really is about.
I do miss my grandparents, and it makes it even more real at the holidays when my memories of them are so positive and I wanna see them again, so that's the part I actually do struggle with at times too, but you can't do anything about it, but it sure does stink, that my grandma never got to meet my son.
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